Monday, May 30, 2005

John 3


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1After dark one evening, a Jewish religious leader named Nicodemus, a Pharisee, 2came to speak with Jesus. "Teacher," he said, "we all know that God has sent you to teach us. Your miraculous signs are proof enough that God is with you."
3Jesus replied, "I assure you, unless you are born again,[a] you can never see the Kingdom of God."

4"What do you mean?" exclaimed Nicodemus. "How can an old man go back into his mother's womb and be born again?"

5Jesus replied, "The truth is, no one can enter the Kingdom of God without being born of water and the Spirit.[b] 6Humans can reproduce only human life, but the Holy Spirit gives new life from heaven. 7So don't be surprised at my statement that you[c] must be born again. 8Just as you can hear the wind but can't tell where it comes from or where it is going, so you can't explain how people are born of the Spirit."

Saturday, May 28, 2005

simply astounding


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When Universal and NBC merged, every employee got a gift package. It included highlights from NBC, as well as Universal. The E.T. The Extra Terrestrial DVD was included as the Universal contribution. Here is the official E.T. web page.

I must say, E.T. is still one of my favorite movies of all time. If you haven't seen it in a while, it's worth another look. Most films I watched when I was a kid are just unbearable now. But, this one stands the test of time.

To me, this is a beautiful story about true love. It is an homage to the beauty and mystery of science. It is also about friendship, and unconditional love. Even if other people misunderstand, or stand in judgement. It is a moving film. The music is fantastic. And, watching it now, it transports me back to my childhood in a nostalgic bliss. However, it's not too syrupy sweet. It is a strange and wonderful tale of the possibilities of the unknown, and the bonds of family in tragic times.

In my 26 year journey, I have met some interesting people. I have had conflict and pain, jealousy and misunderstanding. There have been fights, abuses, wrongdoings, and unforgiveness. I have experienced failure and disappointments.

But, I have also had the privelage of meeting people from all walks of life. Strange people, driven people. Creative, misunderstood, beautiful people. Business people, professors, street prophets, celebrities, and rejected members of society trying to survive. I have been in the middle of a pilgrimage that has brought me through fires, valleys, and fears. Yet, I continue to endure and preservere. I am thankful for all I have been given. Because, faithful reader, we earn nothing. Earning is an illusion. We are privelaged with gifts of life and love. We don't deserve them. I don't know about tomorrow, but I am thankful for what I have today. Right now. This moment is the only moment that has or ever will exist.

And, I also really enjoy watching Top Gun. That's another classic 80's movie.

Friday, May 27, 2005

the jury is out


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After pajamas in public places, suv dancing, Gary Coleman, an insane prosecution Mom, and a bizarre array of celebrity witnesses, Michael Jackson's defense team rests. There is (or was) a rebuttle from the prosecution, and now we wait. There could be a decision as early as next week.

To you this question is posed, loyal reader. What will the verdict be? I'm thinking not guilty. And then, new album. And THEN...(be still my twittering heart)...LIVE CONCERT TOUR?!? Just my prediction. And hope.

And, while I'm on the subject. I would love to take this opportunity to confess something. This whole blog of mine is about the struggling life of a starving artist. Sort of. Along with that, I love providing weird and crazy stories of yesteryear, when I resided in Studio City, CA. Once upon a time, up at Universal, my friend Cindy and I thought we saw Michael Jackson. He was going up an escalator. It certainly looked like Michael. Mid-90's attire, (something like a Victorian suit of armor), and several Secret Service-like security guards surrounding him. People were yelling, and screaming, and waving, "MICHAEL! MICHEAL!" I thought it was him. Oh, how I thought it was him.

A couple of months later, one of the managers of the club he was going into came down to the pizza place where I worked. I told him about the incident, and he promptly explained that it was a hired impersonator. Well, shuck my corn and call me Carlos. I'd been scammed.

Thursday, May 26, 2005

She did it!


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I was scammed. The reality TV machine sucked me into its entertaining web of deceit. I knew months ago that Carrie was going to win American Idol. The judges pushed for it, she was never in the bottom three, and everyone knew.

In the last two or three weeks, however, I began to have my doubts. Say what you will about American Idol, but there was a lot of talent in the top ten. As the competition intensified with each eliminated contestant, Bo Bice somehow rose to the top. I already knew that Carrie was going to win. Why did I believe the hype? The producers and promoters hype it up on purpose to add drama and raise the stakes of the show. So, in the finale last night, I was actually shocked when Carrie Underwood won. I was a clod who got caught up in the hype. But, I knew she would win! Why was I surprised?

It was still a fairly entertaining show. Lynard Skynard performed with Bo, which was the highlight. There was a moderately humerous, if not watered down, sketch where the judges Paula, Randy and Simon made fun of the allegations against Paula Abdul. I thought the Aerosmith number that Constantine, Jessica, and Nadia did was a terrible bomb. And, Kenny G is still crappy. I don't care what anyone says.

I'm going to buy Carrie's album when it comes out. I also want to go see a concert of the top ten finalists. Overall, I admit: I was entertained by the giant reality machine last night. Sue me.

Monday, May 23, 2005

Elmer Ave


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My friend Ward is beginning to create somewhat of a buzz in Hollywood these days. He and his friend have begun a grassroots fashion design company called Elmer Ave. It's a rock high-fashion sort of deal. They've been "debuting" their stuff at various fashion shows in L.A., and they're beginning to sell in more stores. You can check it out at Apparel News. Just scroll down to the "fashion" section, and click on Elmer Ave.'s recent party and fashion show." Not to drop names or anything (hehe) but, members of the Black Eyed Peas, and Rascal Flatts have worn their apparel. There are other bands and whatnot who have sported their clothes. I guess they just picked them off the rack at a store in Hollywood where Elmer Ave. was available.

If you've ever seen the Clay Aiken video for "Invisible", then you probably know Ward. He's the guy in the background who's one of the fake guitar players. (But, Ward really plays the guitar. But, not for Clay Aiken.) He was also an extra in Sweet Home Alabama. It's his claim to fame. Hilarious, and wonderful, all at the same time.

The guy in this picture isn't Ward. Simply a random model. But, he's stylin' the Elmer Ave.

That's my news from tinsel town for now.

Yoda discipline


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After seeing Star Wars, I began pondering Yoda's spirituality. He gives Anakin some wise words: you must train yourself to let go of all you care about. Then, you will find freedom from jealousy and pain. It's a very ancient and Eastern Philosphy, rooted in Buddhism and probably further back in Hinduism. It's no surprise to me that George Lucas deliberately incorporated Eastern Philosophy into the latest Star Wars film, as he did in the original trilogy. Most famously, in The Empire Strikes Back, With other Buddhist words of wisdom from Yoda about letting go of earthly desire.

So, where am I going with this? Well, glad you asked. I am reminded of one of my favorite spiritual guide books (outside the Bible, duh.) It's called Celebration of Discipline. Now, I know what you're thinking. "Oh, yeah! I LOVE to celebrate discipline! Why didn't I realize there was a BOOK about it?!?" Well, it's better than it sounds.

It's written by Richard Foster. A Quaker, nonetheless. I love this book. Because, we don't often think of our spiritual lives as something that actually improves by cultivating discipline. But, this book has helped me probably more than any other single devotional book. Don't get me wrong, Celebration of Discipline is not a devotional. It's more like a guide of spiritual cultivation for your life. He ties together meditation, study, and prayer. They are seperate disciplines to be sure, but they all contribute to your overall spiritual unity.

The Jedi would like this book. I wouldn't be surprised if you see it on Obi-Wan' s bookshelf in Star Wars: A New Hope. Seriously, if you spot this book in your local used bookstore, or even if you feel enclined to purchase it on Amazon, it's a good read.


Friday, May 20, 2005

Revenge of the Sith

Alas, the epic saga is complete. For nerds everywhere, the Star Wars circle is finalized. Not just nerds are into Star Wars, though. Many, many people love it. It's a magical cinematic genius that transports you to other worlds. The original trilogy is special, and I believe they're better than the prequels.

With that introduction, the real bit of news for this blog is my reaction to the final installation in the six film heroic opera, Revenge of the Sith. I saw it last night with some friends in a sold-out show.

The film hits the ground running. The opening shots reveal Anakin Skywalker and Ob-1 hurtling through an extraordinary panoramic space battle in an attempt to save the kidnapped Chancellor Palpatine. The action is very, very intense, fast-paced, and the tone is dark. As the plot unravels, we slowly watch Anakin get seduced by the lies of the dark side. The action sequences are frequent, and incredibly ambitious. George Lucas seems to have honed the abilities of Industrial Light and Magic.

The actual plot is much more interesting than that of Episodes 1 and 2. The murky and overwrought political dialouge that overburdened Episode 1 is finally replaced with pure payoff. Watching "Lord Sidious" increase his ever-strengthening grip over the political structure was very, very exciting. I think the strength in the writing of Revenge of the Sith is the poetic language Palpatine uses to draw Anakin to his side.

Some are uncomfortable taking their kids to see this Star Wars, and rightfully so. It's quite violent. It was disturbing, in a way, to see such a violent Star Wars film. After five other PG ratings, the sixth is finally PG-13. There are many light sabre battles, which makes it immensely entertaining.

Thumbs Up: Breath-taking special effects, intense fighting, The Emperor, Wookies, good pace, lots of fun action. We get to see how Anakin becomes Darth Vader. Natalie Portman is good, Ewan McGregor is fantastic. The Emperor is genuinely evil and seething. Hayden Christenson is much better in this one than in Episode 2. We get to see R2-D2 fight! The emotional tone is deeper than the first two prequels.

Thumbs Down: Mace Windu is under-utilized. General Greivous is sickly and didn't live up to the hype of all the promotion. Not enough Chewbacca! Some Yoda fight scenes were a bit tedious (maybe a bit too long). Despite the 2 1/2 hour time of the film, some plot points seemed to be skimmed over. For example, Mace Windu, Wookies, Padme, and the conclusion of the film seemed to be crammed with all the tying up of loose ends. It was almost as if George Lucas realized all this stuff had to be crammed in there somehow, and had to make it work.

So, what do I think over all? Come on. It's Star Wars. I absolutely loved it. I'll be watching it several more times before it leaves theaters.


Sidenote tidbit:
Samuel L. Jackson (Mace Windu) said that he knows he must die in this film, so he told George Lucas that he'll only do the film if Mace Windu goes out in a blaze of glory and not "like some sucka". On an American late-night talk show, he confirmed that he did indeed have a meaningful death scene, and did not go out like "some punk."

Thursday, May 19, 2005

Dear Corporate World

Yesterday I had a job interview in neighboring metropolis, Nashville, Tennessee. It's with a carrot company that makes various fruit and vegetable drinks, all natural. I have been in talks with these people for three months now. There's a good chance a job may come of this, eventually.

The interview yesterday was the first time I've met anyone from this company face to face. Daunting? You betcha. I was already self-conscious enough after four grueling phone interviews with various strangers. Was I interviewing for four different jobs? What's going on here? How excited can I make myself sound about being a go-getter after the 11th question? After all that, it was finally time to face the piper.

The first 4 HOURS driving to Nashville with no A/C wasn't so bad. Then, literally just as I got into Nasvhille limits, my engine began to overheat. I mean, overheat. The gauge red-lined, there was a bit of smoke. Already nervous about not knowing my way around Nashville, and meeting people that could potentially change the course of the rest of my life, my jitters were promoted to full-blown panic. Not fun. I pulled over, and luckily there was a body shop guy nearby.

[insert southern accent] "Yeah, it looks like you ain't gonna get all the way back t'Knoxville on that."

Well, awesome. Twenty minutes until my interview. My car was overheated, I was somehwere in downtown Nashville far from the Starbucks, and I had no idea how to get there from where I was. Great times.

I called the woman I was supposed to interview with, and she seemed very understanding. My car came limping into the parking lot twenty minutes late for the interview. I had car coolant all over my hands, I was sweating, and totally out of it. "Hey, I'd be a great asset to your company. I'm a REAL PEOPLE PERSON!!! DID I MENTION I LOVE PEOPLE?!? GEEZ, I FREAKIN' LIVE FOR OTHER PEOPLE!! DID I MENTION THAT?!?" (Then I break down into tears.)

"Thank you, Evan. We'll call you."

Okay, so it didn't go that rough. But, another strike out was that she expected me to have this powerpoint presentation ready. Um, I had no idea. I'm sure I've got this job in the bag.


Dear corporate world,

I'm not a robot. I'm doing the best I can, but I can't be perfect. YES, I made mistakes in college. YES, I moved to California in pursuit of a dream. YES, I want to sell carrots! NOW, HIRE ME!!!

Most Sincerely,
Evan

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

miracles happen


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A miracle happened in my life today.

I was driving home, after eating lunch. I had just finished a phone interview, and my mind was winding down from answering point blank questions about my college history, career goals, and where-I-see-myself-in-five-years type lingo. I was happily listening to Beck and enjoying the summer sun.

Then, the miracle happened. I saw, on the side of the road, a little table. This road is about a four lane, fairly busy vein of highway. The house was a little one story house, set back a good chunk from the road. What did I spot on the little table? An Atari 2600, amidst a scattered bunch of old junky electronics. I pulled into the driveway, and examined this treasure. There were about 20 vintage Atarti cartridge games, and two paddle controllers. I eagerly rang the doorbell of the little house.

"Yes?" A timid, rather intimidated looking elderly white woman in a night gown answered the door. She eyed me suspiciously.

"Ma'am, I see that you have an Atari from what looks like a yardsale. Still interested in selling it?"

"Well, I suppose. It's my grandson's."

My heart rate quickened. "How much would you take for it?"

"Well, honey, I don't know. 4 or 5 dollars."

4 or 5 dollars. I was having an out-of-body experience. I promptly handed her a $5 from my wallet, and thanked her for her time. I scooped up the Atari, the wires, the controllers, and the bag full of games, and plopped them into the passenger's seat of my wondrous hatchback.

You may not believe this, ladies and gentlemen, but the Atari actually works. I took it home, dusted it off, and was utterly stunned when it worked perfectly. My mother was just somewhat puzzled by my glee. But, learn this lesson: miracles do happen. Wondrous miracles. My Atari 2600 is living proof.

Monday, May 16, 2005

shopping is a feeling


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You know him as the lead singer of 80's band The Talking Heads. But, David Byrne has gone on to do amazing things as a solo artist. He has a series of critically successful off-beat pop albums. Feelings, The Forest, Looking Into The Eyeball, and more recently, Grown Backwards just to name a few.

And, he even wrote and directed a feature film in the 80's called True Stories. It's one of my favorites, based on a Talking Heads album by the same name. It's a comedy, quite bizarre.

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

George Jones


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Congratulations are in order for country singing legend George Jones. He recently celebrated 50 years in the music business. Also known as "The 'Ol Possum", and "No-Show Jones" ,(because he was notoriously absent for studio and concert appointments), George Jones has sealed a place in the halls of country legend alongside Johnny Cash and Dolly Parton.

If you're not familiar with his music, I recommend any one of the variety of "greatest hits" collections Jones has, and one of his most recent albums, The Cold Hard Truth. Every song on this album is a winner, my personal favorite being the title track. Another classic worth mentioning from this album is the song Choices. It's graceful, genuine, and beautiful. One of his classic hits, He Stopped Loving Her Today, was recently voted the #1 country song of all time.

His rich and grandpa-like voice grace the presence of many a sad tune. Lyrics of lost love, honky tonk, empty bars, and broken hearts accompany sad fiddles and whining steel guitars. Incredible.

Known for hard drinking and irresponsible revelry back in his prime, Jones sails gracefully into a senior legendary status as a bigger-than-life country icon. Congratulations, George!


Saturday, May 07, 2005

An L.A. Daydream



I spend my days here in East Tennessee trying to balance a social life, a career search, and a family identity. Things sure have changed since the 'ol days of Los Angeles survival. I find my daydreams more and more frequently drifting to my times in L.A. Obscure memories are coming to the surface that tend to be forced to the back of my conscience. Most of them are about Universal Studios, since that's probably where I spent the most hours. However, so many other good and weird things happened.

Probably the second or third day I was in Studio City, my roommate Doug drove me down to his management office, called CA Talent. They weren't really "agents", so to speak. But, they basically were. They represented a great deal of people, and sent headshots and resumes out to various casting calls. Different casting directors would fax or email them little blurbs, describing what they needed, then CA Talent would send in the people right for the job. Then, if the casting directors for whatever shows liked some headshot CA Talent sent them, that actor would get called in for an audition.

Doug parked on the street, and we walked up to the gate and buzzed in. It was a little one story place, nice and clean. Very California style. Doug introduced me to a beautiful "young" woman, (don't remember her name), and she stretched a smile over her botox face. California actors are energetic, upbeat, and...unique. I loved it on one hand, but it could also be creepy.

I actually got to help them for an hour or so, reading blurbs, then sifting through files and files of headshots to find people who matched the descriptions. "casting call for: JAG We need a middle aged white man who's willing to shave his head to look military. SAG preferable. Must be staunch, very tough, and no taller than 5'8". Grizzly voice is better." Um...okay.

Then, a guy came in the office, an actor named Stan. I began talking to him about comedy and whatnot, and he had done some extra work on CSI and whatnot. It turns out that he's from Atlanta, and he had played Carson-Newman College in basketball. (Carson-Newman is my alma mater) Small world, huh?

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

Everyone has Favorites

The definition of a movie star has changed somewhat over the years. It seems to me that back in the "golden age" of Hollywood, movie stars like Cary Grant, Clark Gable, Doris Day, and Bela Lagousi were bigger-than-life royalty. With the advent of cable television, satellite television, movieplexes with 20 theaters, behind-the-scenes DVD features, and the internet, our culture is super-saturated and overexposed to media.

In the Jackass and reality tv era, where are the true "movie stars"? Even the term "movie star" has all but lost it's glamour in my book. Well, the true movie stars are still there. They're just somewhat overwhelmed with all other media images.

Here are my top five favorite (current) film actors. These are the ones who are the most compelling, most consistently good acting, and have the most "movie star" factor, in my opinion. They're not just "actors", but movie stars.
(These are just the males, I'll save the starlets for a different blog.)

5. Samuel L. Jackson
Okay, so maybe the new Shaft movie was sort of a flop. But, Samuel L. Jackson has proven himself over the years as a man who transcends "actor" status. With a legendary performance in Pulp Fiction, he became instant A-list. I don't think I've ever seen a Sam Jackson performance I didn't like. His aura is bigger than the silver screen. Remember Unbreakable, Coach Carter, Changing Lanes, and The Negotaitor? He also spread his talents to animated features with The Incredibles, and became a new pop culture icon in the new Star Wars films. Samuel L. Jackson is platinum.

4. Johnny Depp
When The Pirates of Caribbean launched Johnny Depp to a new level of platinum, he won critical acclaim and the hearts of so many moviegoers. The character of Captain Jack Sparrow has become something of a pop culture icon in and of itself. However, my love for Depp spans back to the days of Edward Scissorhands, Ed Wood, and Blow. Depp has earned the label of being the outlaw movie star with the heart of a beatnik. But, those labels are true. Depp is an artist who has become one of the biggest movie stars alive by following his heart. You can't beat that. And, he's probably in the top three film actors of all time, in my book. He is in the same realm as Peter O'Toole, Marlon Brando, or James Dean.

3. Wilem DaFoe
Beginning his career in experimental improvisational groups, Wilem DaFoe developed a work eithic that drives him to do anything for his art. He is also an actor who brings to mind the word "imagination". His characters are distinct, bold, and DaFoe openly takes risks. His performance in Shadow of the Vampire is one of my favorites of all time. He was also born to play the Green Goblin in Spiderman. He continues to choose unique and fascinating films. He strikes me as the modern day Peter O'Toole. Eccentric, unique, and brilliant.

2. Bill Murray
This one is a no-brainer to me. Begining as a funny man in the early years of Saturday Night Live, Murray proved himself an endearing and lovable goofball. In recent years, however, he has gained the credibility he deserves for being a wonderful actor and a compelling screen presence. Ghostbusters, Scrooged, What About Bob?, Groundhog Day, Ed Wood, Charlie's Angels, and Wild Things were only the beginning. He has gained a whole new status in films like Rushmore, Royal Tenanbaums, Hamlet, and of course Lost In Translation. Lost In Translation is one of my favorite films, due in large part to Bill Murray. Want to see a fun-loving goofball? Watch What About Bob? Want to see brilliant and subtle technique? Watch Hamlet. Bill Murray is a platinum movie star.

1. Will Ferrell
This guy is one of the best. Don't be surprised if he earns Oscar recognition one day. How can every single word that comes out of someone's mouth be so honkin' hilarious? Whenever Ferrell is on the screen, I'm captivated and laughing incontrollably. Another Saturday Night Live alumni, he has successfully earned an A-list status. And, he's got the talent to last for many years. I look forward to watching him continue to make teriffic choices. I could list all his upcoming and current films, but you get the idea.

Honorable mentions: Tom Cruise, Al Pacino, and Robert DeNiro. I mean, come on.